and they won't let us outside anymore {for
Jan. 1st, 2013 11:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
at_one_blowThey smile when they say things like 'stable.' 'Healthy.' 'Improving.' He smiles back because he doesn't know what else he's meant to do with his face.
It's the only time he smiles these days.
It's a nice facility, really. The government hadn't skimped on making his prison a comfortable one. Some piece of his mind that hovers in 'stable' and 'healthy' and 'improving' appreciates that--or finds it ironic.
Most pieces of his mind are still quietly screaming, quietly scrambling to cling together over the cracks realization had left. Looking for six more pieces of himself that shouldn't be missing.
But they smile. They smile and tell him he can have visitors now. He smiles back absently and returns to his sketches as he sits in the common room, waiting for visitors who won't come.
Not allowed shears. Not even allowed needles.
The dresses he draws are beautiful and completely unsatisfying.
It's the only time he smiles these days.
It's a nice facility, really. The government hadn't skimped on making his prison a comfortable one. Some piece of his mind that hovers in 'stable' and 'healthy' and 'improving' appreciates that--or finds it ironic.
Most pieces of his mind are still quietly screaming, quietly scrambling to cling together over the cracks realization had left. Looking for six more pieces of himself that shouldn't be missing.
But they smile. They smile and tell him he can have visitors now. He smiles back absently and returns to his sketches as he sits in the common room, waiting for visitors who won't come.
Not allowed shears. Not even allowed needles.
The dresses he draws are beautiful and completely unsatisfying.
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Date: 2013-01-05 03:05 am (UTC)He doesn't know what the word is for being Known by Erica. He just knows it's different.
"...you'll really come back?"
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Date: 2013-01-05 03:36 am (UTC)"I will. Promise."
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Date: 2013-01-05 05:40 am (UTC)A simple sort of promise on his own part, but one that will keep him focused. Keep him remembering her while she's not here.
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Date: 2013-01-05 07:28 am (UTC)It'll mean he's doing something a little more like his old self, after all.
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Date: 2013-01-05 09:33 am (UTC)It's still more than just blank. Hopefully that counts for something.
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Date: 2013-01-05 11:38 am (UTC)It's a smile, and even if it's not quite his, it's a hopeful sign nonetheless.
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Date: 2013-01-05 11:55 am (UTC)This time, he'll slip back into the silence, exhausted from the ordeal of being someone.